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A Little Batty in Austin

Conversations with My Lesbian Friend Pt.1

Ah I love my lesbian friends.

M: "I remember when K was all like hell no I am not friending Nick but now your like a brother to her there has been times she has even talked about you"

Me: "awww what did say when she talked about me ?"

M: "we are at work and she is all like did u see Nicks status today i am like no she comes back on your break get on Facebook and like his status damn it lol"

Me: "lol"

M:"that or if we see a girl we both think is pretty first words are hey what do u think Nick yes or no"

Me: "lmao."

M:"but the funniest I saw this chick and she was a bit thin but had a nice butt average breasts so I said there Nick so would her then she comes back nope two reasons one Nick would hurt that bad yeah very bad he would hurt that second.. her voice is to squeaky for Nick he would shave his maness down her throat to shut it up.
not your dick not your thing or penis no she had to call it your maness  I seriously laughed so hard my side cramped up."

Me:"lmmfao"

It's the Future!!!!!

 So it's the beginning of that wonderful time that happens every four years when everyone asks me "what do you want the future to be?" Yes it's election time, but that's not why I'm writing this blog though it does kind of pertain to it in the fact that it has to do with my response i give when asked that by people which is "why do i care? it's not like I'm going to live forever."

 It was after one such exchange that i began to think "what if i could live forever? what would i want from from it?"  the more i thought about it the more perplexed I became.

 after about two days of this I came to a very interesting and slightly disturbing answer which was "I would want to see how much more fucked up we as human society could go." because when people talk about the future they talk about all the good things that could happen like AIDS, and Cancer being cured or paraplegics being able to walk again or even humanoid looking robots walking among us, no one every says "with this kind of technology I'm gonna do some messed up stuff?"

 I'm not saying that don't great things like to happen but I just starting thinking about it in that sense because if we can't even figure out things like who has the "right" to marry how can we expect things to just magically get better with new technology? maybe i'm just a pessimistic person or really messed up.
Either way at least i came to some kind of answer on this question. What about you guys? ever had one of those questions or this question come to you? what answers did you guys come too?

Life of Lies (Venting on Family)

 As crazy as my life is there is one part of life that utterly confuses me to no end, lying.
 I know we all do it, and I'm no exception, but have you ever realized that the thing that makes a lie "bad" all depends on who is the "position of power"?  You know you tell the cops that the ounce of weed they find in your car isn't yours they consider that  "giving false information", but they lie to you about some fictitious shit they "found" in your car that is perfectly ok. Really?
 The reason I bring this up is the fact that recently things have become harder at home do to lying that has been taking place (though really it's been happening all my life), and I'm finally getting sick of it. I guess I should fill you in on some things.
Recently, I've been living with my mother, not because I want to but things went to hell in hand basket after living on my own for a little over a year, and I ended up back at home. My mother is also notorious when it comes to her image, and she would rather I lie about how I feel about her, her friends, or my family.
 I know that people say "you reap what you sow", but what kinda person, let alone a mother who puts down her son about himself, and yet when is faced with the facts of the shit she has done, stuff that I remember, and tells you either, "I never said that to you." or "that's not what i ment.", and just back pedals to make it look better for herself, and you like an idiot, how then can you expect him to do anything with his life?
 I think that the worst thing you can do isn't to lie to other people, it's to lie to yourself, and not the little lies we tell ourselves throughout the day like "if I eat this entire pizza and drink a diet coke I'll be ok on calories." it's the lies about your actual character are the absolute worst, and with this in mind let tell a few things about myself, (just a few as it will take forever, and some haven't happened). I am/have done:

• I'm a 23 year old high-functioning autistic, a writer, and for the most part a nice person.
• I have an addiction to sex, and alcohol (for the sex thing in all it's forms)
• I dislike and or hate most of my family (except for a few)
• I've been in a psych ward
• and I have a soft spot for broken women

 Well, I feel better, now off to write for my story blog I'll be starting up in a few days. sorry for the rant just trying to clear my mind of all the stuff blocking my writing juices.

                                                                                      Live well, and be Good,
                                                                                      Antidepressant Angel